.kuchiki rukia.

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Saturday, September 30, 2006

I had it all
But I let it slip away
Couldn't see I treated you wrong
Now I wander around
Feeling down and cold
Trying to believe that you're gone
Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain
Inside
'Cause love takes time
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here alone
Losing my mind
From this hollow in my heart
Suddenly I'm so incomplete
Lord I'm needing you now
Tell me how to stop the rain
Tears are falling down endlessly
You might say that it's over
You might say that you don't care
You might say you don't miss me
You don't need me
But I know that you do
And I feel that you do
Inside

-- mariah carey.

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Saturday, September 23, 2006

im amazed that i remember this little corner of mine still. the last time i posted something was 30th july. thats like almost 1.5 mths ago..

anw ive got some photos up for show :) if anyone comes here anymore..

took this at IMH. 33 has quite some meaning to me. though its not a big deal.. but thats the no of the bus i take to queenstown from school almost everyday. but for this it was from a drawing of the old IMH.

for those who tink ure having some psych disorders. read this.

i wonder if u are awake now. playing mahjong? watching tv? toking cok? hope that ure slping soundly now. its a short period of time. but im gonna tell u that im done. done with every residue left inside me. i wan us to be jus like before. smiling n luffing happily as really good frens. i wun say that the uneasiness has gone away. at least it wun be as bad as 2 weeks ago. know that ure jus starting to enjoy tt freedom without me hovering ard u always.. nvm la. u can ignore me if u feel better tt way. dunno y but jus feel like telling u tt im done with settling all the emo. sorry to haf made u so sad tt day. i was comforted to see that u cared so much still. about the 167 too. n the photos. n i realised that i can nv get pass dis 2 wks curse. always not strong enuff to last till the end. sorry that im not like u. to be able to accept that life goes on. losing u jus made me realise that i can nv stop loving u. hmm dunno if i'll ever get to see or tok to u again. but i hope its a diff feeling by den :) so do tk care of urself dun make me worry.. n rmb the promise u made.

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20060730
Sunday, July 30, 2006

zong2 you3 cang2 zai4 xin1 li3 de lei4..

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Monday, July 24, 2006

to celebrate my 2nd last day of work here at okamoto.. i shall blog something tdy.. prob cuz im too bored at work n will look stupid stoning n day dreaming.. n i cant use the company phone to chat either.. i cant wait to leave this place. smack in the middle of an industrial estate without much instance of civilisation okamoto is really a dead man's place. n the office is so damn quiet there's no life at all. the only colored object here is prob the paper flowers i made out of boredom last week. sigh.
n i jus knocked myself agst the table corner AGAIN. this makes it the 5th time? gawd. i cant stand looking at all the blue blacks on my knees n thighs. to date.. abt 13.. argh.
im dozing off too. not even mp3 is helping me... someone get me outta this non-breeding lifeless den!!!! SAVE MEEEE!

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Sunday, June 04, 2006

as usual. doing stupid things aft n before dinner when we meet. had yee mee, jiao zi, some dou sha dessert puff and xiao long bao! yum yum :D hope 2 see em agn soon!

and recently ive started work at taka food section selling sauces and ee fu noodles.. miraculously the aunties actually believed tt i cooked the noodle samples! bwahahaahahahah.. dun care if i haf aunty face or not la.. jus got sell things can alrdy :D apart from those cooking times me n colleague usu k-po ard and 'bio' ppl see wat they wear.. wat they do.. haha a couple of times catching some couples smooching down the escalator. den some others smiling to themselves as they go from stall to stall.. so far the funniest ive seen was the promoter diagonally opp my stall stuffing her nostrils with tissue papers and cooking mee siam at the same time!! n heard tt her hair's a wig actually. oops. haha one of these days i'll tk a photo of her stuffed nose n show u all. interesting man.. this job. can see so many wierd things. n tok to all sorts of wierdos.. had alot to say over the past few days but now forgot so cant blog. haha maybe i shud blog everyday when i come home from work. singaporeans are really damn interesting creatures.. oh almost forgot abt this sign on the right.. hahaha. took it from the warehouse behind taka food mall while waiting for the auditing staff to start end-of-day sales collection. the funniest thing abt working there is tt at the end of the day.. we'll chiong all the way from our stalls to the warehouse (where the auditing dept is) so we can be one of the first few to hand in our sales bag! y leh? for the basic reason tt the person who is last in the queue will go hm late. its like practically running towards the warehouse every night la! i was so amused by the scene i cudn stop luffing on the 1st day aunty nancy showed me the route! when her colleagues saw her briskwalkin to the dept they also started chionging! haha so far we haven dropped out of top ten yet. hohohoho.. tho we eventually got to be among top ten but still haf to wait for the auditing staff to come n that was how i got the pic from the warehouse..

but the job is super tiring.. tho qt fun at times... hahaha...

i was amazed at how i cud actually wake up for my climbing course tdy. but it was a good day! so fun! mainly cuz the instructor was super funny! rmb one of his stories abt this ang moh guy.. the instructor was the belayer at tt time.. den belaying this ang moh guy.. ang moh guy climb haflway suddenly stop n hang in mid air.. so instructor got very puzzled n started shouting to him 'are u okay?' no response... second time.. no response.. third time.. no response.. so instructor found it qt wierd. thot he experiencing diff up there or wad.. so instructor asked other staff to check on climber.. n guess wad. the climber fell aslp in mid air!! while climbing!!! damn qiang...

but we din get to climb till the 2nd half of the day when we did practical.. first time din manage to conquer the wall! :( cudn get past the hum p agn like last time.. den rested awhile n tried again. this time i really must go up le! wanna see the scenery! haha.. geok very power.. she went up to the top the 2nd time tdy n i did the same aft her! though i almost slip n fell a few times.. but tts where the shiokness come from! hahaha.. its like u fall yet u wun die... rock climbing is really hen2 hao3 wan2!! haha addicted alrdy... oh n i took a pic of the first wall we climbed tdy.. its slanted wall.

hmm my arms n legs are super suan now.. wan to slp. but waiting for daddy n mummy to come hm from cameron highlands.. zzzzzzzz

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

watched Munich in the morning -- surprisingly boring. although it was a steven spielberg film.

den da vinci code in the afternoon -- butt torturing. the movie was ok la.. just too much dialogue. but i love the castles and paintings! but i was wondering if wat dan brown said abt the last supper might be true.. since i still believe that da vinci might be too blur to have forgotten to draw the chalice

oh learned something today too! made my first dumpling (ba zhang) and it was delicious! prob because mom cooked the liao4 n not me... oops

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Saturday, May 13, 2006

went for rock climbing today! after many weeks of circumstances and happenings i finally got the chance to try climbing.. :D although ive got ju gao zheng.. but still managed to climb half the rock wall?? cuz there was a hump in the middle of route and got stuck there. seriously not enuff arm power lo. the first try still wasn't so bad.. could yank myself a few times up pass the hump but failed to stabilise myself on the tile so fell back again! hahaha.. second climb was quite gao xiao cuz geok and i climb adjacent walls and got stuck at the same hump again! (both walls haf humps at the same level) cudn stop laughing at each other seeing how diu lian we were stuck up there and dangling freely.. haha if possible i wud haf pushed geok up pass the hump! but cant la.. if not i'll freefall down the wall. but geok made it in the end! she even went all the way up! :D said she took 3 visits to make it up to the top.. hope i can get to the top someday too! the view wud be damn good..

though i got ju gao zheng but rock climbing's real fun! maybe if i climb more i wun be so scared anymore :D lookin fwd to the next climb. but gotta wait for those stupid blisters on my fingers to heal before i can go again. hurry heal!!

oh ya forgot to help geok take photo of her at the top of the wall. oops. haha but had a great aftn with her shopping n slacking ard.

<-- thats geok with the army cap! she looks damn cute!

then it was my turn -->

<-- tts geok again in a beanie! took this some time ago.. :D

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Saturday, April 29, 2006

been in the lib since 2 weeks ago.. sigh. cant wait for tues!

sbw can be rather captivating at times.

tried to take a pic of the beautiful sunset at woodlands mrt but some mrt blocked my view -_-"

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Friday, April 14, 2006

here i am again. 233 am. trying to piece those photos yet again. seriously dozing off... my coffee isn't working. damn.
think everyone's damn stressed up about exams. do drink more water during this period.. not good to fall sick aft stuffing all those crap into ur head.
got nothing much to say anyway.

someone certainly did disappoint me again. so much for staying up over the past few days........ thank you very much.

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20060309
Thursday, March 09, 2006

its funny how we understand each other despite the distance.

thanks a mill for the puzzle, bro. (if u still visit tt is) n erm. ur pressie's STILL on my desk collecting dust!! really sorry! planned to send it after my term ends. since i really haf no time to write at all now :)

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